post thesis entry.

deliberations are finally over!
hooray!

pero we're not done yet.
may book pa.
at ako may re-rendering to accomplish pa.
but no worries!
matatapos rin yan.
parang nung delibs lang...

i'm happy for my blockmates who passed and to my other thesis mates too...
magaling at wala namang failed..though conditional states (like me haha) eh kayang kaya naman...
swerte parin.

picture c/o conrad.naging photographer ng mga taong bangag.
thanks dude. and folks, behold my site development plan
na uber haba! wee! (and that's me with the red dress c/o LINK
in POP CULTURE, TRINOMA)...sir aleta sa foreground, and sir
dimanlig and ma'am zeny with me in the background...

etong rendering thing ay second chance for me.
mabuti narin kasi i personally wasn't satisfied with my output.
kaya hooray again for photoshop!
at yun ang medium ko for the rendering of my SDP, na i don't really mind kasi i love rendering and editting and photoshop at mapapaganda ko pa ang presentation drawings ko.
kaya blessing in disguise itetch.
i'm doing it now. haha, wee for the clouds and tree brushes :D

i am sure some people may feel somewhat "sorry" for me, i can feel it.
*sigh* di niyo lang siguro ako kilala ng maiigi.
pero ako na ang nagsasabi sainyo, "wala yun"
i'm just super happy presentation's done and over with.
and for those who know me well, i'm a very optimistic person right?
di ako nagpapadala sa pressure.
everything has its reasons.
and this render stuff i'm simultaneously doing with the book.
kaya everything's A okay...
(cathe! tapos na, huhu mamimiss ko magovernight sainyo!!!! ahuhu!)

at HOY!
para sa mga nadedepress diyan, ehem, don't let yourself down...ikaw lang ang makakatulong sa sarili mo, kaya why give in to pressure and intimidation?
 it's just a state of mind. sabi nga ni sir aleta, kung nadapa eh di bumangon! haha!
isipin mo nalang "do your best and God will do the rest"
:D

sige lang, go go go!
konting tiis nalang friends!
dizizit!

pero bago ang lahat,
malarayat muna sa tuesday!
hahahaha!
magdala ng swimsuits just in case, ok ok?
kita kits!

worn out.

random echos due to exhaustion
at dahil namiss ko magblog ng 9days.hehe.

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ilang araw nalang ng tila walang katapusang pagpupuyat...
gusto ko nang matapos toh...
pero kinakabahan naman akong dumating ang araw na iyon...

*sigh*

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mantra to self:
i must do this.
i will do this.
i CAN do this!
...for GOD
...for my family
...for myself!

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gusto ko no worries ang drama ko sa sabado, sa debut ng mahal kong pinsan. at sa linggo na kaarawan ng isang enok *haha, bente uno ka na* at dahil dapat nagpapahinga nalang ng mga panahong iyon.

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i would like to thank the following:
-GOD.for my health and strength.
-papa,mama,trina,mike. para sa inspiration and support (kahit malayo kayo...ahw..i miss you guys ssssoooo much) :D
-enok...sa pagmamahal na walang katulad (dahil marami ka nang nagastos sakin, huhu, haha. "ang mahal" ko maging gf.) :D
-tita tess and louj sa pagtatanggol sakin kay lola, hahaha.joke....para sa understanding chova.
-nadal pamilee. for making me ampon for several days of puyat-ness.
-keyt and kuya lah-yers for meni meni things...
-dhene sa model chuva at sa suporta.
-talia and ayit for laughter and chi-sms and for making tanggap all my kurot at panggigigil sa braso. BWAHAHAHAHAHA!
-ser VJ for pep talks and patience :p.
-sir aleta for the concern, support, and thesis references (hihi)
-sir arce and sir roger for references, hahaha...more power to Polygon!

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to everyone else...my friends/thesismates nica, dennen, faith, kuya richard, vonn, kuya lou, ina, kuya julius, kuya chino KAYA natin TOH! matibay tayo! yun yun eh! heads up!

Kuya Jer Jer and Conrad...maybe the Lord has other plans for you guys...there's a right time for everything...suportahan ta ka.

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jomie and chums, i miss you guys very much...huhuhuhuhu...

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ew, im being cheesy na.
yak.

entry ends here.
resume thesis chovalens.

countdown to twenteeny-weeny-ness.

ew.
in a few minutes, di nako teenager.
whatever!

at ang masaklap pa eh nagdurusa ako sa thesis.
haha. joke lang.

kaloka, ang haba ang plan ko.
whata site dev!
limang (5) 36 by 100, isang (1) 36 by 80, and isa pang (1) 36 by 60...
22 km yan ng STAR tollway, 1:750m scale. hahaha!
oo, ang HAAAABBBBAAAA!
so what...
suggestion ni cathe dun ko narin ilagay ang sections ko and maybe details and perspectives if sir VJ permits

may lighting plan pa palang kailangan bukas. grr.
oh well, i guess ill have to miss another PI class...haha, namimiss ko rin si sir apol. hahahaha!
weird...
kasi naman, may ipapaprint pakong mga plano. at ipapaxerox para dun ko gawin ang lighting ko.
anyways, enough blah blah blabbing of LA/thesis jargons...

masaya naman ako ngayon dahil may advance rigalu akong natanggap mula sa aking dear cousin and bryan (whom i saw sa joli's nung friday, haha :p)

TENCHU! mahal ku kayo!
hehe, mabuhay ang mga relasyong tinatag ng bente-otso!

im using it now...love it...happy pig and crazy cow..oo may pangalan na sila :D
 haha! ahh, wrist feels so comfy now...
wee! glow in the dark dapat ito, haha.
anyway, resume to thesis chorvalens.

basta ako may superman watch.

i hate issues.

they're so...chorva.

ha!

may panandaliang kadramahang naganap sa mga mata kong epal nung isang araw. dala lang siguro ng kung anu anong iniisip. may mga mahahalagang pangyayari kasi na pinalampas ko dahil ng mga sakripisyong nalalaman...

oh well, on the brighter side, i get to go home this weekend for MY DAY..isang chorvang araw lang naman. di ko rin matiis ang pamilya ko. i miss them very much. and our house, and monica, and my bed, and the cool provincial breeze, and the quiet neighborhood. yak. nostalgic mode.

pero, kailangan ko paring makatapos sa takdang oras. walang dapat magalaw sa iskedyul ng produksyon...ang presentasyon keri lang. pero di maaring mag-lax. may debut pa ng mahal kong pinsan at UP fair akong balak namnamin. hehehehe. kaya eto, magpupuyat. isang linggo nalang or so...konti nalang. kahit lumayo pa...konti nalang...

...

naiisip mo siguro kung anung ibig sabihin ng blog title ko noh?

haha. dahil yan sa isang enok. na kahit libre lang sa job fair eh nakakatuwang surprisa na gumawa ng araw ko, kahit namimilipit na nung mga sandaling iyon ang sinumpong kong "tiyan".

(half awake) anu yan?...

(may inilalagay sa kamay) libre lang sa job fair.

(bangag) ahh...okay...salamat. (balik tulog) zzzzzzz....

Tsaka ko lang naisip ang mga kaganapan pagkagising ko. haha. ang kyut ng watch! wee! lab et. kahit libre, eh ano. haha. enok. napaka enok.

what thesis can do to you, and what we can do to fastfood paraphernalia

nakakaloka ang thesis. period.

and so we opted to laugh and do crazy stuff para matakasan sandali ang kalupitang dala sa utak ng thesis.

try niyo. masaya!

tamang tama kasi JOLLIbee kami kumain, hahaha!

Bida ang saya nga eh...

presenting mga "TUMATANGGOL" (quote unquote conrad) ng naapi...na mga LA students, hehehe...

CONRAD:"kailangan ng LA ng tumatanggol!"

VONN: oo nga tama ka diyan

CONRAD: let us transform into our jolly super selves

VONN: oo nga tama ka diyan

tadan! Captain Langhap Sarap and Jolliboy!

ang POWER tandem ng kabutihan (at kalokohan)...

ang cute nila noh? hehehe...

no turning back

i am now a nocturnal animal.
i drink coffee at night (or eat apples, because sabi ng sister ko may caffeine din daw yun).
i work pag tulog na ang mga tao...kasi pag gising ang pamilya ko, nagyaya sila mag dvd (which is really hard to resist...ahw).
tulog ako sa umaga. i eat 2 meals a day heavy brunch and dinner, optional ang merienda at midnight snack.
my bedtime falls around 4:30 to 5:30-ish.
madalas ko tuloy naiisip kung bakit nga ba ako nag-arki?
huwah! totoo nga ata na when you're nearly done with whatever, it's also when you begin to be bored with it, your mind's easily distracted...ngayon ko palang naiisip na parang gusto ko magshift to fine arts talaga.ahuhu.
well anyway, pag hindi naman ako successful sa pagiging LA eh nahasa nako sa graveyard shift, pwedeng pwede sa call center! hahaha..

kidding (and pessimistic thoughts) aside, i keep telling myself this will all end soon, basta ba i'm right on track. i try not to be pressured with social and environmental conditions (hmph)...ang hirap pero kailangan kayanin. THERE IS NO TURNING BACK. ayoko maging loser and disappoint my loved ones just because i THINK i can't do "it" and i pity myself too much. ergo (line ni conrad..hehe), i should KEEP MOVING FORWARD (inspired by the disney pixar cartoon Meet the Robinsons, ahehehe)...huhu, ang dami kong iniisip simultaneously (PI100, Lighting, LA146 project), when i should be focused.hay...STAY FOCUSED! but of course, i give myself a break nce in a while, like eating dessert and junk, text twist for a while, and ocassional naps, hihi...

madam cathe has invited me to their dear home for this coming cram month of January. i'd really like that...pero lalambingin ko muna ang nanay ko, hahaha...

i know i can do this.
thank you dear blog dahil nailabas ko ang rants and emotional whatevers ko.
thank you enok and JL and itay dahil pumayag silang maging lil helpers ko sa thesis, hahaha, humanda kayo...
thank you Lord for the health and strength para magawa ko tong thesis ko.
well, break's over...CADding shall resume.
bai!

PS. if you're a thesismate o' mine, kaya mo yan.kaya natin toh, hahaha.! GOODLUCK!

what's next?

lola's interment took place this morning in Laloma.
i cried my last few tears. konti lang. kasi masaya naman ako at nasa heaven na siya at di na siya naghihirap.
































one day, sabi ng pari kanina, we'll all meet again in heaven. dun, magkakaron kami ng family reunion muli! hehe...
kaka-sad lang kasi siya ang favorite kong lola ever!
*oh, and i looked for the gold ring lola gave me nung bata pa ko. aba, sinukat ko siya ulit ngayon! KASYA pa! wee! will wear it poreyber na


oh well, moving on...grad pictorial na namin bukas sa Zone 5 (sa may west ave)
haha, excited kami ng mga blockmates kong girls, and the guys don't simply understand that.
i remember nung grad pic namin nung HS eh pinatanggal ko pa talaga ang braces ko! haha!
anyway, hay, excited ako sa creative shot ko haha.
secret muna.
tapos movie "daw" after pictorial.
hihi, nawa'y kasya ang pinansiya ko.
*i really really want to watch beowulf and/or one more chance (hehe)

fastforward...Thesis.
may namemressure na prof. adviser. deym.
i know concerned siya, pero napepressure talaga ako everytime he asks me kung kumusta na ang thesis ko.ewan ko ba. nakakapraning. ayoko pa naman na napaparanoid. rar.
hehe. seryoso! kailangan ko na tumigil sa pagiging lax! baka senyales ang pagpaparamdam ni prof. adviser hehe. faster results lique! rar.

super fastforward...
malapit na nga pala ang pasko.
huhu, kapos ata ang pinansiya ko.
bahala na si batman.

oo na tamad nako.

kumusta naman binidyuhan ang stretch ng site?
haha..good luck sa pag pau-pause-pause ng bidyo...
kasi naman, naglalakad naman ako nung una at namimicture, kaso nag-warn si kuya danny na baka may AHAS!!! huhuhu.
blah.

a great start.

since i promised myself that bumming days will end and thesis mode shall resume, pumunta nakong star tollway today...
hay grabe nadala ata ako, kapagod! rar!
around 9 in the morning, sumabay lang ako sa tatay ko na papuntang la salle...
i was dropped off at the office at siyang kinuha ko ang a3 plans...
rush agad sa copylandia para magpa xerox, dahil malelate ang tatay ko sa meeting niya...
ayun, GASTOS NA NAMAN! huhuhu...40 pages of as-built plans na di gaanong kalakihan ang scale na 3.50php ang bawat paphotocopy ng isa.siyempre doble ang pinaphotocopy ko, just in case...at dahil hanggang 12 pa ang ama ko sa school, ako ang napagutusan ni inay na bumili ng bawang at juice sa robinsons supermarket...
and then i waited for papa...

fastforward>>> lunch sa bahay tapos balik ulit si papa sa school at ako sa STAR ulet...
i gave back the plans agad tapos conducted preliminary interview to three different people! hay grabe...mga almost tig isang oras sa bawat tao, dahil may mga tanong sila at siyempre ako rin noh...isa from engineering, security (accidents), and collection...
buti nalang ang babait nilang lahat..hehe...o siguro charming lang talaga ako (naka naman!)...
i believe i got what i needed (for now)...
plan with contours...kaso alang planting! shucks...so sa sabado early morning ay sasamahan naman daw ako ni kuya tolits hehe...inventory starts then!
i also got accident stats from jan-sept 2007 (at hihintayin ko pa matapos ang taon para kumpleto ang mga buwan...)
and collection average in a month...sir valdez gave me the month of april 2007 stats kasi peak month daw yun....
ok fine. and oh, i guess i might have to revise my survey form kasi nakha ko na yung info na kailangan ko so parang useless mag-survey...reword ko nalang daw...

bow.
yan muna for today.
now i have to do preliminary data tabulation and analysis of the stats they gave me.
and by saturday nga, papagurin ko na ang sarili ko..huhuhu.
today was an overall productive day! kahit na nakakapagod...

hay.
pero dahil sa naganap ngayon parang naiisip ko na ang dami dami ko pa palang dapat gawin...sumusulpot ang mga ideya at tanong sa utak ko.ahh! parang dadagdagan ko ang methodology ko pati ata scope and limitations....

blah.bahala na bukas.rest muna ulit ngayon hehehe.

nga pala, nagkita na naman kami ni chums ngayon!
yay! so happy...dun muna ko sa dorm nila habang hinihintay si papa...
ayun, malapit na pala ang birthday ni jomie...hehe...may pagpaplanong magaganap

thesis proposal finished at last!

rest day muna...
haha...
note to self: give self a reward...hihihi...
resume thesis revisions by friday :p

laftaf is still being cured at gilmore's..
he's sick huhu...nabingi haha...

hay, i want chocolate *drool*...


patapos na ang sem pero parang loaded parin ako sa gagawin...
almost all of acad requirements are due sa OCT 5.
deym.
here we go again..
but first!
must...have...rest...zzzzzzzzzzz.....

breakdown

sad. oh so sad.
why oh why make "necessary sacrifices" daw...
hmph..
optimism dapat..yun yun eh!
ang pray, pray, pray..
oh LORD GOD bless us all na nagte-thesis...
thesismates..kaya natin toh!

toxicity...plus sanity remedies

haha..
ilang araw nakong puyat.
2 or 3 am na ang average bedtime ko.
sabi nga ng pinsan kong si kuya carl, "toxic ah" or di kaya "busy na naman tayo dyan ah"

hay..
oo, busy...

lahat ng subjects ko may gawain..
Kom1 essay...
STS group work stuff...
Natsci2 boring prof plus quizzes stuff...
Parks design, book report, field trip, and blah stuff...

Thesis! haha! Thesis forever! thesis, thesis, thesis, lalalalalalalala...
punta nga akong STAR tollway office tommorow...kasi weekday lang may pasok, at buti nalang walang Parks subject at Arch159 bukas, at nakapagpaalam na kay sir na magsisite nga...
wawawawaw, ibibigay na daw yung plans...autocad.hay.buti naman.
nakalimutan ko pala magtanong ng land use plan.sana meron sila.san maalala ko.
May pending pa kong mga books at other references na kailangan basahin...
ala pa kong naiinterview ng matino...nagcacavass pa kasi kung sinong pwede..hehe

nyay.may arch159 assignment pa pala.shux.di pa naman ako nakikinig kay sir. doodle time ko kasi ang isang oras niyang paglelecture about...gosh...i really don't know...hahahaha!
hala, may field trip pa sa sabado...must be at UP by 7am..huhu, galing pa kong Lipa...

hala, hala, hala....hahahaha....lalalalalala...

hay, buti nalang may laftaf nako.
oo guys, may laftaf nako...
di nga lang siya MAC tulad ng dream ko, pero ang ganda! hehehe
all BLACK, ECS 14" laptop from PC Corner Gilmore...
dati pa toh, ngayon ko lang binulgar...haha...
30k lang, intel core duo na, yay!
aylabhet...bigay ni enok..
oo...BIGAY! as in gift...
at nagkasundo kami na ito ang huli nyang regalo sakin...
no xmas gifts, no birthday gifts, anniversary, valentines, na-dah!
hangga't di ko natatapatan ng regalo din sa kanya! hahaha...
laftaf is one of the reasons that keep me sane..
perhaps you've read my haircut sanity-remedy from my previous post. hehe.
ayun. also Simpons keeps me sane as well. Plus a BIG DOSE OF PRAYER.

eniwei, di maintindihan ng karamihan kung bakit tinanggihan ko si laftaf nung una...
yes, dineny ko siya at first.
kahit limang taon na kami ni jijumar...may hiya parin naman ako noh...kasi nag-iipon sana siya for a car (nax, pati yun binulgar ko narin) at..basta nakakahiya...kung ikaw ba naman nagkikwentuhan kayo ng mga pangarap niyo sa buhay...etong si isa gusto ng kotse, si ako gusto ng laptop...and viola! ako may laptop na...pero prrt...di ko naman kaya bumili ng kotse noh...huhu...la lang, kakatouch, hehe...yung ibang tao kinikilig...ako?haha...ewan...habang buhay naman ata akong kinikilig...yak naman...hehehe...
owel, ayan, nadagdagan ang wish list ko: BUY A CAR FOR ENOK.

for now, ang short term goal ko ay to get through first sem na pasado lahat ng subjects! hehe...tapos, gumradweyt! find a job...na i don't know yet kung ipupursue ko nga ba ang Landscape Architecture o ang dream job ko nag mag-Advertising (co-dreamer ko ang bestfriend ko dito, si jomie...we're both advertising freaks.lol)...because i'm not really sure i'm meant for the L.A. world...sidelines siguro pwede hehehehe...freelancer! owel,bahala na, basta may MALAKING sahod...sorry, in desperate need ang pamilya ko eh...hay...

deym, review pa pala akong natsci...baka may quiz na naman...huhuhu...
over and out....

mock presentation

1st mock presentation for research proposal sa thesis kakatapos lang. whew. what a relief. pero there still are loopholes and stuff na kaylangan ayusin..rar...

hay, *cross fingers* sana ok naman ang kalabasan pagdating sa presentation proper before the jury on the 25th of September...

busy busy busy!....ghad...

may other subject requirements pa...
buti nalang watching "Death Note" keeps me sane right now. LOL...
and the thought that my family is counting on me BIG time! wha! i don't really like expectations and anticipations...nakakapressure...pero ganun talaga...Mahal ko sila...nax!
and of course ang Maykapal na di ako pinapabayaan. Amen! yup yup. prayer is really what keeps me sane. conversing with Him helps BIG TIME. hehe.

eniwei.

dagdag ko nga sa wish list ko (slash prayer list) eh sana:
- mapagtapos ko ng pagaaral ang mga kapatid ko
- makagraduate ON TIME
- makuha ng job ASAP hehehehehe...

bangis.
for now...research propsal...re..search..pro..po..sal...resea....

*the time for rest and sleep is rare now...even more than before! my eyebags are bigger...san san concealer cannot cover it up anymore...*

whew

mini thesis done.

YES!

after days of extreme puyatan and manual drafting :P

details later...

 

approved!

nyay. may thesis topics na kami!

wha! i can't believe it!

heto na, heto na, whaaaa!

ever since i can remember, i've been praying to God for a thesis topic - yung kaya ko tsaka yung maganda naman siyempre.

nung Youth-CLP Retreat ko nga eh isa yun sa mga pinagdadasal ko talaga.

Right after the retreat, habang nakatunganga sa CALABARZON Star Tollway, eh naisip ko bigla ang thesis...nyak, corny i know, pero i took it as a sign from God. And then, come to think of it, my book report for Ma'am Galingan last semester was all about roads - specifically guidelines for the greening of metro manila roadways. Ayun, another "sign". Nakwento ko na toh, i know, pero inaayos ko lang ang delivery ng pagkikwento, hehe...Then, come first meeting for our thesis class, Sir Dan made us read journals and react on the articles and maybe, with some stroke of luck, we'll get to have an idea of a thesis topic. and viola, one of the firsts journal articles i found was:   Reclaiming the Obsolete in Transitional Landscapes: Perception, Motion, Engagement by Krystallia Kamvasinou / Kent School of Architecture, UK, JoLA (Journal of Landscape Architecture) 2006 Issue. ehem...

...spaces between city and countryside commonly experienced on the move are called transitional landscapes commonly found in the commuting life of metropolitan areas...

o diba bongga! hehehe...ang corny ko talaga noh? umaasa sa signs? Pero I'm confident about it for some reason...and i make God my reason! nax! chorva...

and so yesterday sir dan made approvals on our topic proposals...and guess what? yep, approved ang Transitional Landscaping of the CALABARZON Star Tollway ko! at yun na yun...kaso i have to think of a better statement than this...more specific and focused daw...i can incorporate innovative lighting daw and other beyond-the-standards amenities, plus relate it to culture! wha! and i might have to change the term transitional landscapes kasi isang objective ko lang daw yun, gawing transitional ang streetscape...owel, think think think....still in progress...

Let me expound my point by quoting Donald Appleyard et. al. : [the interest] in the aesthetics of highways [was] out of a concern with the visual formlessness of our cities and an intuition that the new expressway might be one of [the] best means of re-establishing coherence and order on the new metropolitan scale. [The reason behind the attraction] to the highway [is] because it is a good example of a design issue typical of the city: their problem of designing visual sequences for the observer in motion.

hay, nag-aambisyon ako lampasan ang streetscaping ng Singapore! LOL!

libre mangarap mga dude...

heto na, heto na...whaaaaaaaaaaa!

shucks, mini-thesis pa pala....

~officially busy~