optimism and wishful thinking

my second sem officially starts tomorrow...
wala kasing klase nung friday, usually kasi the profs don't come to class on the first day.
anyway, hay...just a few more months to go (hopefully)...
pero i'm trying not to say "hopefully" anymore. gusto kong isipin na matatapos nga ako on time.
optimism nga eh.
motto yan namin ng pinsan ko. (noh louj?)
kasama ng mga joketime at kwento moments eh ang wishful thinking namin...
we'd have conversations like:

"sus, balang araw magkakaron din tayo ng magandang bahay. may sarili pang rest house para dun nalang tayo mag family reunion..."

or

"someday, ang lakwatsa na natin ay mag-iimprove to spa, facials, and high end shopping, yung tipong maraming paper bag na dala! haha!"

or

"hay nako, magkaka-BMW at mercedes din ako noh"

at marami pang ibang ambisyon!
actually, i'm planning my future in the process (hehe)...
dahil ako ang panganay na anak, i feel i have the responsibility to be the second breadwinner of the family...i'm not pressured naman. i guess that's what's really expected of me kahit di ako sinasabihan ng magulang ko. and it's ok, gusto ko na nga magtrabaho eh. excited? haha, kinda. i want to earn my own money! haha! and i really want to provide for my family, lalo na ang college tuition ng mga kapatid ko..hahahah! naglolokohan nga kami ng brother ko...

"ate, pagaaralin moko ha pag may trabaho ka na. kaw narin magbibigay ng allowance ko."
"sige, basta pumasa kanag UP para mura lang..."
"di noh, gusto ko sa mahal! hahaha"

hehe, o di ba, lokong kapatid yun!
joke.

then after, gusto ko mag-ipon for a house.
bakit?
basta.
not too big.
hirap linisin eh, hehe.
basta malaki ang garden.
ha!

hay nako, ang dami kong gustong gawin at ma-acheive.
*pray pray pray*
flashback sa aking previous "ambisyosong" wish list...
http://lique28.multiply.com/journal/item/35/wish_list_dahil_libre_mangarap
ang dami noh!!!
ang taas kasi ng level ng wish..haha
at kulang pa yan...
marami pa kong nais.
ngayon may laptop nako.wee!
di nga lang MAC.pero ok lang.
someday i'll have a MAC.
for now, my little black laptop is a little savior. hehe.
*enok, super salamat. i'll buy you a car someday!*

so right now, tiis muna sa mga darating na puyat and/or sleepless nights of plates, papers etc.
hard work! hard work! cram! ay mali...hard work pala, haha
hay, i anticipate the last few months to be the most bloodshed of all academic months ever.
huhu. breakdowns and near-suicidal attempts expected...
pero araw araw ko pinagdadasal sa Panginoon na gabayan niya ako.
*cathe! ina! THESIS HOUSE! asap i hope...hehe*

kaya ko toh!
o Lord, i leave everything up to you...
another motto: do your best and God will do the rest...
HUWAH!!!!
ghad.pasok na ulit bukas! rar!